I am posting one part of my diary that I wrote a year ago:
“It is two a.m. in the morning. I woke up at 1 a.m. and started breathing. Accepting myself fully as I am today…the work that I am doing as a teacher in an elementary school, everyone around me thinks it is so great and cute and I still try to hide how simple I am and insignificant. Why do I want to be recognized doing great things? I need to empty and let that go…
I am so occupied with the way others look at me and judge me. Let me only worry about my life and my breathing. I should stop this nonsense of what others think of me and focus on re-teaching myself to accept everything as is.”
looking back a year ago I was in deep agony, giving weight to what others think of me. I am happy to say that I have changed. Doing danjeon breathing is a great tool to view myself as I am- letting go of all the fake parts that caused me so much pain.
These days I am practicing being sincere and not so much popular-that is the opposite of my life-long habit. I am so much happier now. Thank you danjeon breathing for allowing me to look inside deeply and change.